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31 05 2006

It happened. It finally fucking happened. Yesterday night, May 30th, at around 9:30 PM EST, I threw twelve strikes in a row… in one game. That is correct, folks. Correct.

I mean, who saw it coming? The first series had enough intrigue of it’s own. In the 2nd game, I left a stone ten pin on my first shot, covered it, then preceded to rack up eleven more strikes in a row. 290. My new high sanctioned game. Good for me; I threw the ball well– surely it was all downhill after that. And for the next 3 games afterwards, it certainly looked that way. I had only split my games with my opponents, I wasn’t striking when I needed to, I was leaving tough spare conversions at poor times.

Then game the sixth and final game of the evening. I don’t remember much about the whole game itself– I put together a bunch at the front, and my opponent opened like 3 times, so I knew I was in fantastic shape to pick up a couple points– just that I think 300 began to creep into my mind after six in a row, and I began to think it was actually doable after eight in a row.

The tenth frame– whoa boy. Got up, adrenaline going– first shot, I didn’t get quite as far right as I wanted; the ball picked up very strong in the mids and came in high flush, tripping the four pin in the process. My first thought was “oh God, I lost my line!” This led to an incredibly nervous Colin for the 11th shot– I piped it, about 2 boards right of where I had thrown my last shot. Boom. Flushness. Eleven down, one to go. Oh crap. Now I actually MADE it this far. What to do now? I remember going through the motions (superstition maybe) of tapping the rosin once on each of the finger holes, then wiping it off, then throwing the ball up, catching it, and putting it down on the scoring keyboard. I got up on the approach, and went through the whole “Colin talks to himself ordeal.” (you know, “C’mon kid, you got this– shoulder up, walk straight, back square, clean release follow through– c’mon kid– all you can eat buffet here”) It’s funny, because one other thing I remembered while I was up there was that once someone told me that Pete Weber ALWAYS moves deeper on a 12th shot of a perfect game to compensate for the inevitable “fluffing” of the ball. So I did just that– feet a couple boards left, target just a hair more right. I don’t even remember if I hit my board. I’m pretty sure I didn’t stay square to the lane and wrapped myself up in my backswing. All I know is that I let go of the ball behind the foul line– and about halfway down the lane, I knew it. The ball was going to hit flush. All it had to do was carry. And carry it did. There it was. Perfection. 300. One of the life goals, accomplished on an evening where I was ill, but had already shot my high sanctioned game. All I mustered was a measly fist pump. A mildly loud “Yaya!” Got high-fives and handshakes from the rest of the league, including a few bystanders who weren’t there to bowl in the league, but happened to catch a glimpse of perfection. I was exhausted. I mean– I had already been exhausted from three hours of sleep, then ten hours of work, and a daily diet that consisted of bottled water and peanut butter crackers. But I got up for the last game. Yeehaw I did. Was I nervous. You fucking bet I was. I mean, I wasn’t quite shaking like a leaf like I thought I was– but I definitely suffered from a bit of the Jello body. Thank God for muscle memory.

I still can’t really fathom it. I need a day to let it sink in. I can’t wait until I get my ring.

I did it. I bowled a perfect game!

300!

Yyyyyyyyyyyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeessssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!




Just can’t shake…

28 05 2006

I don’t give a shit cause I got the drop,
Johnny just got two eyes just like mine,
And I’m feeling kind of funky, kinda fine.
Cause I drank a bottle of whiskey before I came,
Came to the bar to see what’s the same,
I saw my man named Johnny sitting across the table from me,
And to my left was a man he had no gin,
He didn’t even think about starting to sin,
The man to my right, wasn’t feeling very nice,
He looked kinda mad and I felt bad.
Because I took his money last night,
Now I’m just struggling,
I need a honey bunny.
I don’t know what to say anymore,
So I’m just going to go out the front door…

I know.

It’s shit.

And it was my away message all day.

Deal.

Maybe some pics of the T-Towners tomorrow or something.




Scattered clouds…

26 05 2006

One week down.

Nothing new– went running today– 6:41 mile. Yeah. That’s right. I’m wheeeeeeels. Went to see the Da Vinci Code tonight with Leah, Adam, and Cassie. Eh. It’s alright. Tom Hanks has a fucking mullet though. It’s terribly distracting. And there was far too much foreign languages and accents going down– though I enjoyed it since I’m a dork who likes the whole historical treasure hunt kinda movies (enter National Treasure). Started a scratch bowling league on Tuesday. Kicked some ass in my first set, not so much in my second, but all and all, it was still a pretty good week (I’d get into more detail here, but God knows my ego is already big enough as it is). Oh, “won” at poker Monday night. Good for me.

Apparently, people have found me in a much better mood since I’ve been home. Well, it’s clearly nice to actually have friends who don’t spend weekends holed up getting drunk off their ass (though I must admit, I’m a *tad* more awkward sober– (that was tongue in cheek, of course)). And work (however insane it sometimes is) gives me that kind of release where I don’t have to be sustaining deep thought every waking second of the day. Just do either dumb grunt work out in the field, or in the store, I’m forced to put on the “Colin is always happy,” facade to sell grossly overpriced pool chemicals. Then again, the “Colin is always happy” facade gets old people to adore me, and you know how much I love the elderly…

Though I admit, things are still bothering me. What’s the most confusing, is exactly WHAT (and to what degree) is bothering me is never the same. I’m still missing something(s). It’s an annoying feeling, because half of the time you just want to say “whatever, I really don’t care anymore– I’ll just deal with what I got,” and other time I have the “what the fuck is wrong with me” mentality. I have issues with choosing my thoughts correctly; I mean, I know saying things and thinking things are “bad” for me, but I’m just too weak too resist. I’m not sure which way I have to “work” on that.

What can you do?

Stop writing shitty posts, that’s what I can do.




Lost my watch?

24 05 2006

Holy shit, I’m awkward…




Unlock…

23 05 2006

I’m sunburned.

I likely shortened my lifespan by a couple years by mixing hydrochloric acid and calcium hypochlorite (honestly, who knew it would be THAT bad).

And I made it six weeks in a row cashing downtown at poker.

Hot damn.




I need a commercial…

21 05 2006

Is it a compliment when a woman on the wrong side of 60 tells you that you “smell wonderful” during a Sunday morning mass?




They pick me up when I’m feelin’ blue, now how ’bout you?

21 05 2006

There’s a draft I have saved. Well, there’s a lot of drafts– mainly drafts from drunken nights that I pulled in honor of the “better judgment” clause. There’s one more wrap-up post chronicling Ithaca. It all. The proverbial beans are spilt. It was started a long time ago. And I’ve added to it. Kind of a work in progress. I figured I’d post it tonight, but you know what, I’m not in the mood tonight– it’ll just have to wait until after a grueling 10 hour work day. The summation. That’s going to be the name. I like it. It’s so. Encompassing.

It’s amazing what your surroundings can do to you. Right now, I’m rejuvenated, pumped, relieved, self-confident, encouraged– whatever you want to put in there. I’m there. I gave it up. I just stopped. Distance is going to be my friend. It took long enough for me to take this weight off my shoulders. I mean. That means something. But. Ohhhhhhhhhhh yeeeeahhhhhhh…

In the words of Kanye West, it truly does feel good to be home.

I’m ready to rock. Ready to roll. Let’s party all night long, kids. We got tonight, we’ll worry about tomorrow when tomorrow is today.




Better days…

20 05 2006

The last one from Ithaca for now. There’s always a chance it’s the last one from Ithaca forever. You never know what Tufts or BU will give me the third time around…

I feel mildly (and surprisingly) melancholy. Actually– I’m not sure if it’s a dolor or merely one of those resigned reliefs. I’m beat. I’m burnt. I’m cashed.

“Grab your things I’ve come to take you home.”

It doesn’t feel like home here. That’s always been the problem.

*Sigh*

Who knows if Torrington is going to fix everything. I sure hope so. I hope distance and time cure all ills. I hope I can go back and lose focus. Not care. I’m kind of excited to drone through life. Get up, go to work, come home. Poker on Mondays, go for the PBA card on Tuesdays, more poker or bowling on Thursdays, and friends on the weekends. One by one. I know where I have to go and what I have to do. I have no expectations. Not like last summer, not like last fall, not like this spring. Expectations are too much for me, because lately, they’ve just fizzled in front of my eyes. Not fun. In the least. I mean, of course I bring it all upon myself. I allow it to happen. But. So I give up. For now. I guess that’s kind of something to look forward to. It’s a terrible, pointless something to look forward to, but I am the only thing between myself and a windowless, cramped, empty, padded room.

I’m not sure where I’m hanging or what to, but I know tomorrow night is going to be a different night.

I hope.

See you in Connecticut world!




Appear and fade away…

19 05 2006

One more exam.

Two more nights.

Maybe I can leave all the baggage (justfied or not) that is Ithaca, NY behind.

One can only hope.




I’m summer…

18 05 2006

Why does it always seem to work out such that…

You go through life not really thinking about what makes someone tick.

Then when you actually think about it.

You have them pegged.

You know what the inner workings actually are.

Then they tell you that it’s not true at all.

So you doubt your knowledge of everything and anything.

You’re wrong, right?

But then.

They admit they were lying.

You were right all along.

Whyza?